theMesh » pain http://themesh.de A place in the middle of the bridge to nowhere Fri, 27 Jan 2012 22:02:48 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.2 Writers crave for experience? http://themesh.de/2010/01/09/writers-crave-for-experience/ http://themesh.de/2010/01/09/writers-crave-for-experience/#comments Sat, 09 Jan 2010 14:48:05 +0000 sicarius http://themesh.de/?p=1066 Play the hot game to the borders of your mind,
and from there on try how far your heart will take you,
before you fall.
Honestly - did you believe you ever would?
I feel that one should never
envy those who got stronger
throughout a heavy journey,
but I do.

I want you to take my heart,
and rip it apart.
I want to feel live.
I want to feel it so badly,
that I'm craving for the pain and sadness in it,
for it makes me feel the most alive.
I want to speak to the broken hearted.
I want to be there, when there are no words to be found anymore.
I want to collect this brilliant, unique, impressive pictures, moments.
I want everyone to know about them, to experience them,
to relive them, for they shall never vanish.
I want you to put me under pressure.
Ask me something hard to answer.
I want you to make me take drugs.
I want you to violate my senses, my feelings, my mind.
Would you please do that for me?

I'm not running out of ideas,
I'm running out of time,
because the pile get's higher and higher.

Your eyes facing the void beneath the horizon
are of a beauty my heart can barely face.

The moment that I fall in your disgrace,
rescue me with forgiveness.
I never wanted to be a liar to you,
so please, give me the chance to never be one.

If you ever walk a road my heart cannot follow you on,
you will notice by the sound of it breaking.
Crystal clear, like diamonds in the falling snow
of another, darker night.

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Dear world, life hurts.
Still, I can't let go of the pain.
All I feel is pain - what else could there be?
Imagine how empty I was, if only I could let go.

I dream of making a new start,
but I don't see it lying right in front of me.
One day I might just open up again,
like a butterfly leaving his old skin behind
for a new prime.

All that I am angry with:
You've hurt me. I love you.
Concerning some,
I don't know how to spell forgiveness.

I feel like I've lost too many battles.
Still I didn't give in complete.
Will I let them take this last barrier?

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but it was impossible...
for me...

wanted it but there were...
no tears...
they were gone for you...
i cried them for you...
for your love...
for your hate...
for my wounds...
you made...
there was your touch on my body...
and my broken heart...
after this...

sometimes I feel so weak...
because of this....
because of my memories...
cause of this fucking memories...
hate them....
sometimes i hated you...
but not for long...
couldn't do this for long...
don't know why hated it...

would never forget this...
moments...
moments of hate....
and love...
and pain...
yes pain...
I will never forget you...
I'm sorry for this....
brains....

Isabell v.Malottki...
15.8.08
21:25 uhr

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